"paranoia"

damn!!!! i see them around all d tym...honestly i shudn't b so worried coz dis is sumthing all normal people feel...they are like these tiny nano-sized monsters buzzing near my ear!...itz just so horrible...as if u r standing or rather floating in the vacuum surrounded by questions...jeez!!!...there are so many things i want to do...but mayn i need d push...hello...somebody out dere..do u hear me...no perhaps u r deaf!!! or maybe too complacent...my friends say itz just d hormonal surge...but just look at d intensity..urghhhhh...

wish i cud mutate into a bird n fly away from dese freaks hu surround me...i noe dis sounds so cryptic but don't noe how to put it in different words!!! anyway...just wanted to noe if dey sell a miracle drug to put everything ryt??? or if d brainies have managed to create a potion called "happily and normally ever after"...need it badly!!!

p.s. don't ever expect anything from anybody...u can die due to d aftereffects!!!

p.p.s. all u hypocrites will surely go to hell *swears*

AN ODE TO TRUE LOVE

Is there a way to know

what future holds for me?

Perhaps, its a shadowed labyrinth

or maybe a shower of glee...

Lets paint this picture

Summon the love I need

I am waiting for him

People ask who is he?

Strange but I don't know

His face I've never seen

The waterfall of my strength

He's always there beside me...

I try to find him in the mob

I thought it would be easy

Only to have my hopes dashed

Difficult this ordeal has been...

But he'll stay with me forever

Not in person but as a feel

He's my way, he's my destiny

I love him and he loves me...

Strange but I don't know

His face I've never seen

The waterfall of my strength

He's always there beside me...

'coz my heart knows

he's somewhere here

hidden in this world

but I'll find him

'coz he's the only one

I need to be with him

A little late but on his way

My love, my life, my prayer...

Strange but I don't know

His face I've never seen

The waterfall of my strength

He's always there beside me...

I WAIT WITH HOPE...

going back to the time
when i was wide eyed,
looked at the wonderful things,
fascinated, content...

someone held my hand,
wanted to let go of it,
wanted to reach out,
i was no more a kid...

i was in the world,
the world was in me,
it lured me,
i let go of that hand...

i ran to reach it,
if only i had known,
it was not for me,
too late, i was hurt...

now only a shadow
walks beside me,
reminding me,
the old innocent days...

so i wait with hope,
my only companion,
i will find that hand again,
turn back and walk away...

CAN YOU BELIEVE???

It certainly takes a holding strength to place your belief in something. Some believe in god and some believe in devil. But i believe in something that is somewhere on the middle line....something that can be called and is nevertheless called our mind. Our mind is god if you wish it to be and it can be devil if you let go of it. SOMEWHERE deep hidden beneath the layers of memories, guilt, illusion and happiness is the place that makes us believe that someday everything will be perfect...that someday everything we love and wish for will be within our reach...if it helps us believe then why not believe in it altogether. I, a normally complacent human, do not believe in god or devil...because i believe in myself.......a belief that is stronger than the silk a spider spins...a belief that is harder than the biggest diamond. IT IS MY BELIEF THAT WILL TAKE ME PLACES. In a world where people need a book to dictate their actions, in a country that survives on it's religious commitments...i have broken the bond...not to wander astray but find the real me........