AN ODE TO TRUE LOVE

Is there a way to know

what future holds for me?

Perhaps, its a shadowed labyrinth

or maybe a shower of glee...

Lets paint this picture

Summon the love I need

I am waiting for him

People ask who is he?

Strange but I don't know

His face I've never seen

The waterfall of my strength

He's always there beside me...

I try to find him in the mob

I thought it would be easy

Only to have my hopes dashed

Difficult this ordeal has been...

But he'll stay with me forever

Not in person but as a feel

He's my way, he's my destiny

I love him and he loves me...

Strange but I don't know

His face I've never seen

The waterfall of my strength

He's always there beside me...

'coz my heart knows

he's somewhere here

hidden in this world

but I'll find him

'coz he's the only one

I need to be with him

A little late but on his way

My love, my life, my prayer...

Strange but I don't know

His face I've never seen

The waterfall of my strength

He's always there beside me...

I WAIT WITH HOPE...

going back to the time
when i was wide eyed,
looked at the wonderful things,
fascinated, content...

someone held my hand,
wanted to let go of it,
wanted to reach out,
i was no more a kid...

i was in the world,
the world was in me,
it lured me,
i let go of that hand...

i ran to reach it,
if only i had known,
it was not for me,
too late, i was hurt...

now only a shadow
walks beside me,
reminding me,
the old innocent days...

so i wait with hope,
my only companion,
i will find that hand again,
turn back and walk away...

CAN YOU BELIEVE???

It certainly takes a holding strength to place your belief in something. Some believe in god and some believe in devil. But i believe in something that is somewhere on the middle line....something that can be called and is nevertheless called our mind. Our mind is god if you wish it to be and it can be devil if you let go of it. SOMEWHERE deep hidden beneath the layers of memories, guilt, illusion and happiness is the place that makes us believe that someday everything will be perfect...that someday everything we love and wish for will be within our reach...if it helps us believe then why not believe in it altogether. I, a normally complacent human, do not believe in god or devil...because i believe in myself.......a belief that is stronger than the silk a spider spins...a belief that is harder than the biggest diamond. IT IS MY BELIEF THAT WILL TAKE ME PLACES. In a world where people need a book to dictate their actions, in a country that survives on it's religious commitments...i have broken the bond...not to wander astray but find the real me........

Knowing myself

They say you learn some important lessons,

when you consider,

even the smallest thing to bear significance.

As I ink these words here,

the world changes.

As I sit here wondering which way I should go,

a path is laid for me to walk on.

As I examine my tryst with my worth,

I get to know who I am.

For I am a being who has no name yet,

but a burning desire to know,

what part I have to play in this theatre of life

For I do not know,

what future holds for me.

I walk in the shadows of light,

believing that someday the rays of sun will greet me.

Happiness, belief and will aid me.

My steps governed by them,

restraining me from faltering.

This day, emotions flow out of me like light,

reaching every corner of the room called world,

from the candle that is my heart.

For I know one thing that my love for words,

And the ability to appreciate their beauty

Will keep the flame alive in me.

The destiny is being spun,

Where will it take me?

I do not know.

Surely, it will be a good journey.

some scales tell tales......

What is music? For some it is scales and instruments…for some it is a way to reach the oblivion…for some it is a way to escape to a different world…for some it is a way to find the one they call almighty…for some it is a way to find themselves. But for me it’s something else…a medium to express my deepest feelings…the feelings that are untouched…happiness…sadness…anxiety…love…comfort…pain…a way to know who I am.

THE VOID

It's a peculiar feeling and it doesn't go away. They beckon to me. They wish to show me the FUTURE. What do I do? Shall I take a look? Remain in the shadows or come into the light. Sitting here, I wonder, where will I be taken? Which road will I follow? My heart says that I'll reach my destination if I take that road...the road destined for me... the road which will let me be someone I've always wanted to be. But my brain barricades my way and tells me I'll have to traverse two oceans together-one of my dreams and the other that will secure me. It's not easy to take two paths in life, but I take them as they come. I hope that the void between them will disappear. I'll have to wait, after all life is a labyrinth.