LIFE AFTER 12 MIDNIGHT

Okay....I wholeheartedly accept that I am the laziest person on this earth. After a short tennis match with my conscience, I managed to type in the blog site address. And as I'm punching the letters on the keyboard, the whirlpool of words threatens to drown me in the ocean of stories that have taken refuge in the most stubborn corner of my mind. Maybe, I should have uncorked the stories sooner.
         But, no harm done. At least not till today. Things have changed. I'm a certified nocturnal now. I don't really feel bad about being one. Because night is somehow a better haven. You are aloof. The mind can touch the potentials of untowed emotions. Sometimes, night turns it's back on me.
    Since the past few weeks, I've been reading a lot. Vampires, Werewolves, Detectives, Victorian England, you name it! And, I had one more reason to stay awake. The FIFA world cup! Life is interesting after midnight. On one side is the welcomed noise from the real world of football and the imagined world of characters from my favourite books. On the other side is the silence that arches back like a feline and then jumps on you, like the night sky smothering you!
    There was a time when I wasn't afraid of the dark night. I don't know why the calm whispers of trees and the snores of sleeping birds have started to bother me so much now. I can't bear the stillness that night brings. A fear grips me. And even though I try not to, I vividly remember the faces of those ugly ghosts and psychics, who starred in various horror flicks! From there it gets funny. My inner voice laughs at me for being ridiculous. But i shoo it away with an excuse of just being human. Then, somehow, twisting and fluttering in my bed, I manage to drift away. Away from those mangled faces. Away from my fears.
          Light takes over and sets fire to those bothering thoughts. It does not end there. I wake up with diffused memories of various dreams manufactured by my subconscious mind. After a few moments, they hit me like a tsunami, magnified! I laugh at some. Laugh at the idiocy of my subconscious mind.
       There end the adventures of night. I'll miss them when the holidays end and adventures of the day will overpower my body. And I'll drift away even before the clock strikes 12!
     

Call of the heart...

Hear the voice of the wind...

Walk with the sun above you...

Bring in the songs of the rainbows...

The colours sparkling new...

Lead me, my heart...

I wish to follow you...

It's a vague start...

I'll do what I should do...

I'll  follow you...

This life is a magical bliss...

You might say it's too good to be true...

I've made it this way...

with love and I'm grateful...

Lead me my heart...

I wish to follow you...

Though dreams are far...

I'll make it through...

I'll follow you...

I'll never stop and quit...

even if there's a long queue...

Sieze the dreams and fly...

in the skies so blue...

Lead me, my heart...

I am following you...

I'm playing my part...

to get life's perfect view...

I'll follow you...

I'll follow you...

Let's Talk About LIFE!!!

            It's quite interesting how the unpredictable life keeps us going! Each day brings new ventures and promises of untouched surprises which mock the stagnant aspect of life.

         For many of us, life is beautifully complicated. It can be compared to being on a trampoline, jumping up and down. Being in the air is analogous to going through an enriching phase of life. But when gravity pulls you down, life becomes a tragedy! However, rest assured as you are bound to bounce back.

        There are some people who know how to bend the laws and go down in the history because they see life in a different dimension. There is a reason they are famous, the only reason that draws the line between us and them. So, the question that comes up is how to narrow down that gap? The answer is really easy but we tend to overlook it. About 95% of our species ignore the obvious even when it is staring them in their face.

       The answer is belief. Majority of the dreams remain submerged in the marshes of fears and then, one day, they move to the bottom. Unable to breathe, they die! All you need to do is give your dreams the life sustaining BELIEF..... Just sit down for a while and think.

          "Someday I'll fly...
            Someday I'll soar...
            Someday I'll be so damn much more...
            Cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for..."
                 - taken from the song "bigger than my body" by John Mayer
              

THE CASE OF FOUR WHEELS!!!

Waking up at 6.30 in the morning is a really forbidden job for a lazy 19 year old like me. And it can get a bit cranky if you are taking driving lessons just half an hour later.
           So, fascinatingly I managed to open my eyes at the break of the dawn and reset my alarm for ensuring another 15 minutes of sleep, which was hindered by the wake up call of a normal life's affairs. Dragging myself across my bedroom with glances at my siblings nestled in the embracing bed sheet, I, somehow managed to reach the bathroom. Then began the captivating ride.
           When you get into a car, a sense of euphoria whirls around you. A sense of attaining the seat of power in a one man show. And then its showtime. Maneuvering my way on the potholed roads of my metropolitan city, I realize how hard it can be not to hit someone and simultaneously keep your heartbeat in check! But all the cons seem meek when you consider the greener side of the grass. A car is not just a system of mechanical mumbo-jumbo held together by screws and bolts. It is much more than that. You would realize it's significance if you had to travel on feet in the blistering Delhi heat. Nothing can beat the air conditioned heaven especially when it's a big monster with every one drooling over it.
         But, it's just the beginning and I am only allowed to tame the dog, not the bull. Never mind, things will get better. Contrary to the belief of my very good friend, Souvik Sensharma, a car is comparable to the goddess Venus. In his words, a car is a just a "four-wheeled thing". I contradict. Have you noticed the change in the air when a  supreme beast of the road speeds past you? It's not just a "four-wheeled thing". It's much more. But some people would never understand.
        From the cute looking and comfortable Volkswagen Beetle to the luxurious Maybach, each car spellbounds in a peculiar way. That's why I become starstruck or rather carstruck whenever I see a good ride! And now it's time to get out of the car-land as my mom needs me, apparently for some house chore. :)
           

THE RETURN OF THE FALLEN ONE

8 stagnant months...and my pen did not yield a single thing!!! Well u can count out the various examination papers I've written...since they are a waste of imagination...I feel frustated...Yes..that's the word...frustated. It doesn't feel right...because all this while when i was busy trying to figure out a way of reviving my broken armour...the dreams were rotting!!

Those fluttery little things..my dreams...they bleed now...so much time has been wasted. Why is it so difficult to break the monotony of a simple life?...what does it take to make your dreams immortal? I guess I have the answers now...I have to stitch it all up!...Save my aspirations before they flow away with the waters of time...save myself...

It is time..time to collect the strewn belongings...and start again...I'm on the path..the right path...with a constant showery cloud above my head...It is time to break open the cocoon...

"paranoia"

damn!!!! i see them around all d tym...honestly i shudn't b so worried coz dis is sumthing all normal people feel...they are like these tiny nano-sized monsters buzzing near my ear!...itz just so horrible...as if u r standing or rather floating in the vacuum surrounded by questions...jeez!!!...there are so many things i want to do...but mayn i need d push...hello...somebody out dere..do u hear me...no perhaps u r deaf!!! or maybe too complacent...my friends say itz just d hormonal surge...but just look at d intensity..urghhhhh...

wish i cud mutate into a bird n fly away from dese freaks hu surround me...i noe dis sounds so cryptic but don't noe how to put it in different words!!! anyway...just wanted to noe if dey sell a miracle drug to put everything ryt??? or if d brainies have managed to create a potion called "happily and normally ever after"...need it badly!!!

p.s. don't ever expect anything from anybody...u can die due to d aftereffects!!!

p.p.s. all u hypocrites will surely go to hell *swears*

AN ODE TO TRUE LOVE

Is there a way to know

what future holds for me?

Perhaps, its a shadowed labyrinth

or maybe a shower of glee...

Lets paint this picture

Summon the love I need

I am waiting for him

People ask who is he?

Strange but I don't know

His face I've never seen

The waterfall of my strength

He's always there beside me...

I try to find him in the mob

I thought it would be easy

Only to have my hopes dashed

Difficult this ordeal has been...

But he'll stay with me forever

Not in person but as a feel

He's my way, he's my destiny

I love him and he loves me...

Strange but I don't know

His face I've never seen

The waterfall of my strength

He's always there beside me...

'coz my heart knows

he's somewhere here

hidden in this world

but I'll find him

'coz he's the only one

I need to be with him

A little late but on his way

My love, my life, my prayer...

Strange but I don't know

His face I've never seen

The waterfall of my strength

He's always there beside me...

I WAIT WITH HOPE...

going back to the time
when i was wide eyed,
looked at the wonderful things,
fascinated, content...

someone held my hand,
wanted to let go of it,
wanted to reach out,
i was no more a kid...

i was in the world,
the world was in me,
it lured me,
i let go of that hand...

i ran to reach it,
if only i had known,
it was not for me,
too late, i was hurt...

now only a shadow
walks beside me,
reminding me,
the old innocent days...

so i wait with hope,
my only companion,
i will find that hand again,
turn back and walk away...

CAN YOU BELIEVE???

It certainly takes a holding strength to place your belief in something. Some believe in god and some believe in devil. But i believe in something that is somewhere on the middle line....something that can be called and is nevertheless called our mind. Our mind is god if you wish it to be and it can be devil if you let go of it. SOMEWHERE deep hidden beneath the layers of memories, guilt, illusion and happiness is the place that makes us believe that someday everything will be perfect...that someday everything we love and wish for will be within our reach...if it helps us believe then why not believe in it altogether. I, a normally complacent human, do not believe in god or devil...because i believe in myself.......a belief that is stronger than the silk a spider spins...a belief that is harder than the biggest diamond. IT IS MY BELIEF THAT WILL TAKE ME PLACES. In a world where people need a book to dictate their actions, in a country that survives on it's religious commitments...i have broken the bond...not to wander astray but find the real me........